It’s difficult to realize that it’s been a full year since my attempted murder. A full year and I am still battling “evildoers”. Now, the battle is about my silence.

I was struggling on how to write about this anniversary while noticing some similarities with the Charlie Kirk assassination. I feel awful making the comparison because while they are two drastically different things there is a core common thread.

Being silenced.

I have been having a hard time since watching the assassination happen live on TV. I saw Charlie Kirk in his typical “Prove Me Wrong” style of debate at Utah Valley University. Partly, because the civil debates where he invited opposing viewpoints were done so well.

Lots of viral “reels” usually from the unhinged way those who disagree with his viewpoints crashed and burned trying to logically answer simple questions like “What is a woman?” or debating when “life” begins. Just some of the topics that Turning Point USA wasn’t afraid to give opinions on.

I watched the raw footage of the bullet going through Charlie’s neck and seeing all that blood gave me flashbacks to my neck wound. The way blood pours out of a neck wound is something you don’t easily forget.

I also live about 20 minutes from Charlie’s condo on Longboat Key in Sarasota, Florida. Needless to say, I have had a lot to think about on this anniversary of my own attempted murder and it’s easy for me to create parallels.

What I liked about Charlie’s style was that he never seemed to disrespect the person…rather the idea the person has. Isn’t that what a debate is all about?

See, in my case, everything I have wanted to be open and transparent about in my attempted murder case my assassins have been quick to silence me on. Even, being open and honest about such a personal tragedy on social media got me terminated from a 25 year long career. You can bet my assassins had something to do with it. I know this.

Today, a year after the brutal attack on my life, from a juvenile that I trusted and loved, I still can’t go into any details of how things went down. As a matter of fact, this post will be scrutinized in the hopes I say something “wrong” and end up in court for a violation of a gag order. So, I am forced to be careful.
I can’t tell you who my attacker was, I can’t go into details, and (trust me) they are desperate for me to NOT write a book about it. I know it’s because they want to hide the truth…not from just anyone interested in the case…but from my attacker. Why? Transparency is dangerous if it doesn’t fit an agenda or ideology.

Why so nervous?

That is what I have noticed about the Charlie Kirk assassination. At the end of the day, Tyler James Robinson, wanted to silence Charlie. But why? Why so nervous, Tyler?

In my case, the assassins are not the person who actually attacked me…my assassins are the corrupt players that realized I wasn’t going to play along with their created narratives. Ones they thought they could carefully hide. Instead of a gun they used a system that (when needed) can circle the wagons to protect whatever narrative they have created. I wasn’t part of “the club”.

Why is silencing someone with a different viewpoint seemingly effective to these people? What is so threatening about hearing someone’s story or thoughts? Why is the truth so damn dangerous?

We all learned in kindergarten that old saying: “sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me”. Well, flash forward to adulthood and you realize it’s not the words that hurt. It’s what you do with the words you hear. You will hear bad things about you. You will hear things you disagree with. It’s America in 2025. Common sense and being kind to others is just not cool. How you handle it is what separates you from being a radical nutjob.

This is the main problem with “the left” and the LGBTQ+ movement. Not everyone is going to believe what you say. That doesn’t instantly make you a target. That has been lost.

Just like the Mauser Model 98, .30-06 caliber bolt action rifle that Tyler Robinson reportedly used on Charlie Kirk isn’t what killed Charlie. It was how Tyler processed Charlie’s speeches and became radicalized – that is what killed Charlie Kirk. That is what almost killed me.

Sorry, but more gun control isn’t the answer. After all, my attacker didn’t use a gun and I was just 2 millimeters away from a fatal wound. My attacker used an item anyone has access to any time of the day. Ask any victim of a stabbing and they will tell you no amount of “legal restraint” would have stopped their attacker. It isn’t a “law” that is needed. It’s love and understanding. Instead, silence was needed by the assassins.

Throughout history words, thoughts, and ideas have become more volatile than any weapon. Here are a few people that you may have heard of who all passed away because of their words: Jesus Christ, Martin Luther King Jr, Robert F Kennedy, John Lennon, and now Charlie Kirk.

Jesus challenged the religious establishment and Roman authority. The combination of claims to divine authority and growing popular following was seen as a direct threat to both the Temple hierarchy and the Roman governor, leading to his crucifixion.

Martin Luther King Jr. became the leading public voice of the U.S. civil-rights movement, speaking against segregation, racial injustice and the Vietnam War. His growing influence and calls for systemic change provoked violent opposition; he was assassinated in 1968 in Memphis.

Robert F. Kennedy was campaigning on civil-rights, anti-poverty and anti-war messages that inspired many but also angered extremists. He was shot the night of a primary victory while promoting these views.

John Lennon used his fame to promote peace and criticize war, especially with his outspoken opposition to the Vietnam War and establishment politics. Lennon’s high-profile advocacy for peace made him a symbolic target.

Charlie Kirk conservative political commentary in a time when “cancel culture” dictated that he not speak. He was targeted because of his public political speech and the influence of his words.

So, what is so damn alarming about a speech? Why does someone with a difference of opinion become so dangerous that they are killed? What’s more disturbing is in 2025 people actually publicly cheer assassinations. From Hollywood to Washington it’s inhumanly disgusting how many insensitive people have cheered over Charlie Kirk’s death.

A husband, father, son, and patriot. An American who simply wanted to have open and free debates on topics he didn’t agree with.

Likewise, a year after my own attempted murder and I fully believe that people have cheered moments this past year that devastated me. I guess it’s how society has evolved.

What makes free speech so dangerous (especially when paired with charisma) is the fact that words and thoughts are powerful enough to make a mass change in people.

At the time I am writing this it’s been reported that Tyler Robinson was living with a transgender person. Clearly, something that Charlie Kirk would not have agreed with. We can assume that Tyler was fearful that his position could have been debunked or weakened if more people listened to Charlie.

That’s the core reason for many of these assassination attempts. Fear. The idea that someone else could be so influential against your truth and your narrative that they could influence others to thinking the same way. I think Jesus might know a thing or two about this.

So, the fear of losing power and influence radicalizes people. To be sure, Tyler is feeling the wave of people no longer “drinking the kool aid” quite as much as the past few years and that may have made him fearful. Fearful that “his ideas” and “his narrative” may become less popular. He needed to stop that from happening – at all costs.

Similarly, that was my experience. My words could have proved a different perspective of a narrative that people were desperate to keep unchallenged. Here’s the flaw in any assassin’s plans.

It will only make the movement stronger. For example, each attempt to silence the voices I mentioned above only amplified what they stood for.

• The crucifixion of Jesus Christ became the cornerstone of Christianity, turning his message of redemption and love into a faith that spread across the world.
• Martin Luther King Jr.’s murder ignited an even greater push for civil rights legislation and cemented his words as a moral guide for racial justice.
• Robert F. Kennedy’s assassination galvanized his supporters and helped carry forward his calls for equality and social reform.
• John Lennon’s killing transformed him into an enduring global symbol of peace and gave his songs a deeper resonance.

The assassination of Charlie Kirk has turned his final speeches and ideals into rallying cries for his followers.

Greg Gutfeld said it best: “It’s really hard to radicalize Republicans. You know, we’re not the radical type. But if you thought that you were going to shut a movement down, you’re going to get a rude awakening. You woke us the fuck up!”

That is my stance a year after an attempted murder on my life. I have forgiven and still very much love the person who tried to end my life. I think about that person every day. I believe that person is hurting deep down inside. I believe that person is confused by my ‘would be’ assassins. Perhaps that is why they want to silence me. Maybe hearing my words and thoughts might be a powerful influence on the person who attacked me. Maybe they might “wake the fuck up” as well.

Remember, having your own thoughts. Doing your own investigation. Thinking for yourself – that’s not what radicalized people want.

Transparency, ideas, and the ability to have your own opinion are the most dangerous thing to people who want to remain in power. Especially, if their position is weak.

Erika Kirk was spot on when she said: “They should all know this: if you thought that my husband’s mission was powerful before you have no idea, you have no idea what you just have unleashed across this entire country and this world.”

On this anniversary of my attempted murder…I say the same thing to all those people who tried to control a narrative to protect my attacker.

I am a proud American Republican and this is my Turning Point. Don’t be so afraid of ideas, truth, and transparency. Without it…look who we become.

As I mark this painful anniversary, I carry both the scar and the hope that someday there can be understanding. The love I feel for the one who hurt me has never gone away. Even through everything that has happened, my heart still longs for the day when healing and forgiveness can make room for an honest, simple conversation—one where listening and love finally speak louder than fear.